I did not enjoy failing, and that dislike put an eclipse on my motivation to succeed.
False self-confidence, over-personalization and a damaged mindset due to some painful parenthood experiences have sabotaged some aspect of my life. I dedicated it to my love-relationship and when that relationship felt apart I felt apart either.
My identity was unconsciously intertwined with my Police badge and my gun and my inner self – maybe my ego – rejected that condition. What a contradiction. I was completely off-the-grid and not aligned with the everyday environment around me.
When love relationship and what I planned didn’t go as I expected, I shut down, my body collapsed and mind went all over the place.
Fear is part of our human nature and I faced it many times in my life. Today I am starting a new chapter of my career in a Country that is not mine, with a new project that is requiring a lot. Do I have fear? Yes I do, but it is not the same fear as in the past. It is not sabotaging anything. It transformed in a boost for the motivation to succeed, the same motivation that was eclipsed by the fear of failing.
Transforming is the key. Nothing stay the same: we change, our mind change, our body change, situations and relationship change. If you are able to catch the deep meaning of this ever changing aspect of your live, you are successful as no fear will take place and no attachment will take place.
Be foolish, be hungry said Steve Jobs. I agree. I add “be love”.